I realized that I have grown this wonderful youtube playlist on learning mediumship, but here I am, having 2 sick days in a row and clicking on anything else.
Why am I doing that? Won’t it help me to tune in to spirit during this rare winnow of opportunity?
My head hurts so I’m asking chat gpt to see what it says. The answer? Not bad! I wanted to share it with you:
That makes a lot of sense, actually.
A lot of people quietly assume that becoming “more spiritual” means:
- you’ll suddenly have to become perfectly calm, loving, disciplined, enlightened, or selfless
- you’ll be responsible for healing everyone
- you’ll have to give up ambition, money, creativity, or normal life
- you’ll notice suffering more deeply and feel unable to ignore it
- you’ll have to “live up to” what you now know
That can feel heavy.
Especially for someone like you who already carries a lot — long workdays, creative projects, emotional awareness, caring deeply about people, wanting to contribute something meaningful. Your nervous system may be saying:
“Please don’t add another full-time job to my identity.”
And honestly, healthy spirituality usually isn’t supposed to feel like another performance metric.
It can be smaller and gentler than that.
Sometimes spirituality is:
- sitting on your back deck for five quiet minutes
- noticing your dogs’ happiness
- planting flowers under your dogwood tree
- feeling awe while creating art
- breathing before reacting
- realizing you’re allowed to rest
- sensing connection instead of isolation
- choosing kindness without martyring yourself
Not “ascending.” Not becoming responsible for the universe.
You also don’t have to become:
- a guru
- constantly positive
- detached from earthly goals
- available to everyone
- perfectly healed
In many traditions, becoming more spiritually grounded actually reduces unnecessary responsibility because you stop believing you must carry everything alone.
You may also be sensing another fear underneath:
“If I become more aware, I might have to change my life.”
That can be true sometimes. But usually the changes happen gradually and naturally, not like lightning bolts. More often, people simply become more honest with themselves about what drains them and what nourishes them.
And from what you’ve shared over time, you already seem spiritually sensitive in many ways:
- you notice meaning and symbolism
- you seek emotional truth
- you care about helping people feel seen
- you’re drawn to healing, reflection, beauty, and imagination
- you’re moved by connection and belonging
- you think deeply about purpose
That’s not absence of spirituality. That’s already part of it.
Maybe the next step isn’t:
“Become more spiritual.”
Maybe it’s:
“Allow myself to feel connected without turning it into another obligation.”
That’s a much softer doorway.
